If for some strange reason you were wondering what’s happening with C. the Romanian and why he’s not publishing any new articles, the truth is that I’ve been doing pretty bad. February has been an insanely crappy month for me until now and there are no signs that it will get better. The biggest problem of the month: I just lost 50% of my income. For good.
As you probably know, I earn a living as a professional blogger – I have decided not to go the freelancing way, but write and work for myself only. It has been great last year when I managed to get close to six figures (thanks to a massive website sale). I was living the dream. Everything was great.
Until February came.
After selling my website, I was left with two more blogs that earned me a living. One of them was bringing in about 75% of my income. That is no longer the case. At the beginning of the month, I have received word from our main advertising partner that they will no longer display their ads on that website because of some policy violations – one of the things that they didn’t like was a Jenny McCarthy photo that I had published back in 2008. Yup.
I tried to work things around with them, checked out photos and articles to make sure that there is no content they wouldn’t like (and it was killer work since that website had 14,000 articles published over almost 6 years) but they still didn’t want to change their mind.
As a result, I lost on that website my biggest ad purchaser and a bit over 50% of my monthly income. Which, I don’t know how to say it nicely but… it sucks! I was devastated and completely depressed. It happened over night, with no sign of warning. Not as bad as my bankruptcy story, but pretty close. And it came in just when I was complaining that I won’t become a millionaire. Ha!
The only thing that kept me from breaking to pieces and run into the snow to chase butterflies was my kid. When it all crashed and burned, I was lucky to take a look at my seven months old. He looked at me with his big, beautiful eyes and smiled. “Everything’s going to be all right!” At least that was what I was getting from him. He was happy.
I was miserable, but I realized that I won’t give up. I can’t fail, I can’t give up, because I can’t stand the idea of looking at him and not seeing him happy. I have to do this for my boy. And do it better than I’ve ever done it before! He gave me power and an uppercut of confidence to pick me off the ground, get me up and ready for the future. I have to do it for my son!
So… what’s next?
What’s going to follow is at least a few very difficult months for us. But I spoke with my wife and we decided to try and brave this out without touching our emergency fund (we have 6 months of living saved in there). We’re going to go on full money saving mode, full shopping lock down and try to reduce our food bills as much as possible, without giving in the health factor (as in, we won’t start eating cheap burgers instead of home-made meals).
But we’ll surely give up on most organic food that we started to try just a while ago. Sorry, overpriced, chemicals free goodies!
I think it’s doable. We were starting to get used to living a good life and this will make everything a bit more difficult. But it’s not all sugar, candy and rainbows during one’s life and one kick in the butt has to send us forward, eventually.
I will continue doing what I did and don’t look back at the losses, even though I love that website with all my heart and invested tens of hours per week in making it big. But it’s OK, now I know how to do it and I will do it again.
So, I’ve just lost half of my income… but I haven’t lost my will and power to fight!
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